I feel alone but that's not really a bad thing anymore.
I feel on my own.
Crap. I'm actually an adult.
When did this happen?
I have thoughts and ideas and opinions and emotions completely independent of my parents and friends and I'm okay with that. I'm feeling different and strange and excited. Sort of like a baby chick that has just hatched. Wobbly, wet, a little scared, but mostly excited and filled with wide-eyed wonder at the world around her.
I am my own person.
I have my own, wonderful, sweet, beautiful relationship with the CREATOR of the UNIVERSE... the Creator of me.
I have so much to live for, so much to be thankful for, so much light inside to let burst forth and put Jesus in the spotlight!
In the wise, thought-provoking words of Sara Groves ,"I'm strangely ready for what comes next". I'm a bit apprehensive, but at the same time fully ready to dive off the Cliffs of Insanity head first, ready for Christ to catch me and blow me onto whichever path he wants for me.
The deep blue of the sky today left me breathless, sitting on the stone benches by the silver, green lake. The ripples fluttered by, the ducks waddled by my feet into them, and bicycle wheels whizzed behind me.
And I was content...
Just the perfect state of being for God to whirl right in and throw in a beautiful curve ball, drawing me ever closer to him.
As your Dad, it gives me no greater satisfaction, relief, and thanks, knowing you have "your own relationship with your creator". Not your Dad's, not your Mom's, but yours. AWESOME! You are ready for whatever He has planned for you. So excited!
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