Sometimes I get lost within myself. Sometimes I forget what is all around me and fold into the mortal body I have been given, deeper still I go... Deeper into the pit of my soul I often fall and sometimes it's dark and disastrous, and other times it is refreshing and riveting. Sometimes I can forget everything around me and just breathe.
Sometimes I just let God.
The problems surrounding me become obsolete and He becomes everything. He engulfs my very being into Him. He swoops in and lifts me higher than my fears, higher than my problems, and higher still than my persecutors. He becomes the only focus of my life and for a moment, there is more of Him than me. For a moment I am able to see that I can add to the beauty of what He has already decreed to be beautiful.
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
Blurb
It was raining that Sunday morning.
She stepped outside, her hood loosely framing her face, and shoved her bag underneath her coat hoping the purple suede wouldn't get wet. She walked down the brick path as water cascaded in puddles around her footsteps and droplets found their way onto her already showered hair. But she didn't mind the bite of the rain that morning.
She made it to the cafeteria and unveiled her bag. It was unscathed.
Having swiped in, she made her way to her table in the corner; quiet enough for imagining up her next great rendezvous but public enough that no one would question why she was sitting by herself.
It was the perfect ruse.
**No idea what this was supposed to turn into, but I sort of like the mystery that it leaves, unfinished.
She stepped outside, her hood loosely framing her face, and shoved her bag underneath her coat hoping the purple suede wouldn't get wet. She walked down the brick path as water cascaded in puddles around her footsteps and droplets found their way onto her already showered hair. But she didn't mind the bite of the rain that morning.
She made it to the cafeteria and unveiled her bag. It was unscathed.
Having swiped in, she made her way to her table in the corner; quiet enough for imagining up her next great rendezvous but public enough that no one would question why she was sitting by herself.
It was the perfect ruse.
**No idea what this was supposed to turn into, but I sort of like the mystery that it leaves, unfinished.
My Honeydew List
I don't think you know exactly what you mean to me.
I don't think I even have the answer to that.
Sure, I'm moody right now and it's raining outside so the melancholy has officially sunk in..
But that doesn't change the way my heart skips and my stomach flips when I think about you.
I was going to ask you to promise me these things, but I'm realizing that's not fair.
So instead I will "suggest" them to you.
When you head to The Academy, bright-eyed and bushy-tailed, ready to seize the entire Coast Guard in your two mighty fists, please try to remember this list:
1) When you get your hair buzzed, remember how much I love it when it's fuzzy like that.
2) Eat every kind of disgusting food combination you can think of. I won't be there to scoff.
3) You're going to change. And that's okay. And that's good. But don't forget who is at the center.
4) Please don't lose your wild, silly side (obviously only to be brought out during certain occasions
AKA NOT during inspection).
5) Remember how incredibly loved you are by your family. And write to them more than to me.
6) None of those girls know you like I do. Just saying.
7) Get ready to meet some of your lifelong brothers.
8) Remember that how much you miss someone is just a symptom of how deeply nested they are in
your heart.
9) Don't forget who you are deep down. Don't lose sight of the brilliant mind God gave you to
humbly serve him with. Don't underestimate the power of God within you. Don't second guess
His goodness and faithfulness in every aspect of your life.
And lastly,
10) Please try not to forget me. I'll be waiting for you.
I don't think I even have the answer to that.
Sure, I'm moody right now and it's raining outside so the melancholy has officially sunk in..
But that doesn't change the way my heart skips and my stomach flips when I think about you.
I was going to ask you to promise me these things, but I'm realizing that's not fair.
So instead I will "suggest" them to you.
When you head to The Academy, bright-eyed and bushy-tailed, ready to seize the entire Coast Guard in your two mighty fists, please try to remember this list:
1) When you get your hair buzzed, remember how much I love it when it's fuzzy like that.
2) Eat every kind of disgusting food combination you can think of. I won't be there to scoff.
3) You're going to change. And that's okay. And that's good. But don't forget who is at the center.
4) Please don't lose your wild, silly side (obviously only to be brought out during certain occasions
AKA NOT during inspection).
5) Remember how incredibly loved you are by your family. And write to them more than to me.
6) None of those girls know you like I do. Just saying.
7) Get ready to meet some of your lifelong brothers.
8) Remember that how much you miss someone is just a symptom of how deeply nested they are in
your heart.
9) Don't forget who you are deep down. Don't lose sight of the brilliant mind God gave you to
humbly serve him with. Don't underestimate the power of God within you. Don't second guess
His goodness and faithfulness in every aspect of your life.
And lastly,
10) Please try not to forget me. I'll be waiting for you.
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