Before you read any further, I have to warn anyone reading that this may not seem logical or sensible, what I am about to write, but I also must warn anyone reading that I simply don't care:)
Being in love is a curious thing. It is something felt, longed for, worried over, and cried over since time began and I think that has some merit. Why are we all yearning so much, deep down, to be in love? Why does it matter so much to us that we are loved by someone other than ourselves? Quite frankly, we were simply made to love and to be loved. First and foremost by and for God but secondly by the people around us.
Being in love is not just something that you do or something that simply happens. Sure it may come upon you like a tidal wave and make everything else seem so infinitesimal but it happens because of an attraction that caused a thought to pop into our heads... "What if this person actually wants to discover me for who I am? What if I am meant for something other than simply entertaining myself? Now I am not saying that I know the ins and outs of being love, far from it. I am simply stating that I have been, and I am in love and it is the most wonderful, yet interesting thing I have encountered.
It makes me feel like I have just breathed in the freshest air on earth or like I've just tasted the finest delicacy the best chefs have to offer. It makes me feel special to know that there is someone else who finds me worth fighting for and worth inconveniencing themselves. It makes me feel on top of the world and like a complete and utter princess! But why do I feel this way?
I'm still trying to figure out the answer but I think I have somewhat of a clue.
I believe that we have relationships on Earth because we were made that way. I know I already said that but it's true. God made us to love Him and each other and beyond that, there is not much else to our lives. So that makes love pretty important huh?
But there is a great difference between being in love with someone and loving someone.
Being in love is something that you cannot necessarily control. It's all the butterflies you get after your first kiss or the sweat running down your hands as you prepare to meet the family. It's daydreaming and missing the homework and it's sending silly text messages at 2:07 in the morning to your beloved one just to tell him you cannot bear the thought of anything happening to him.
Loving someone is a choice. It is not something that just happens. It is choosing (with all realization of the shortcomings and failures of the other person) to put his or her happiness before your own and to place your selfish wants far behind. Loving someone is difficult. As Sara Groves puts it "Loving a person just the way they are, it's no small thing". Love is extremely difficult because that is what everything must be resting on. Love must be the foundation of a relationship because you won't always be in love with someone, but you can choose to always love them. And I'm sure that must be unbelievably hard to do when you are absolutely NOT feeling in love with them at the moment.
Love must be the foundation of a relationship and we learn what love is from God. God IS love, therefore, GOD must be the foundation of a relationship for it to truly blossom and grow. My darling man and I have made a commitment to making God the foundation of our individual lives and the life of our relationship as well. I'm not going to pretend that we have it all figured out, because we don't. We are merely dating, and I know that there are so many more hardships to come if we are to get married, but even if we aren't, I know that I am learning every step of the way what it means to love him.
It pains me to think of life without him, it truly does. I can't imagine how difficult that would be... to know that he is moving forward in his life without me, and perhaps with another woman. But I CAN imagine myself getting through it with the complete reliance on God. IT would be absolutely horrendous and I would no doubt be in a fit of depression, but I would be able to move on, because I know that my self worth and my purpose does not reside in him, but in Him. In my Lord is where I find my unconditional love, my self-worth, and my purpose. It is only through Him that I know what true love is and that I can never achieve the truest of love on Earth because God gave us that and that was perfection.
All I know is that this man who I am so lucky to be with has blessed me in ways I cannot describe in words (which is funny because I usually ALWAYS have something to say about EVERYTHING). He is kind and gentle, he is playful and silly, he is loyal, he is honest, he has integrity and above all else, he loves our Lord with all his heart, with all his mind, with all his body and with all his soul and that is the most attractive thing about him. He treats me right and then some and that's all I can ask for.
So I'm not completely sure where all of this was going but I guess it was just a little bit of my opinion on love and what it truly is. I hope that in some way I have been an example to you reading this!
-The Redheaded Snippet
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